WHEN I FEEL LIKE TYPING…;)

Pagi tadi aku gi test drive kat setapak…dah lama buat appointment, hari ni baru aku free skit nak gi test drive nyer..so salesman tu pun explain la..spec kete bla..bla..bla..awal-awal ok la..pemahaman gred A lagi …u know..cars and typical lady driver..

Then dia bawa aku gi parking space for test drive car..dia bagi kunci soh aku drive…aku amik..then tetiba.."En Hazmi, en hazmi bawa la..saya risau la kete org ni..saya dok sebelah (ya rabbi..aku pun tak tau apsal aku jadi camni!) ..salesman tu terkejut…"lerr bukan awak datang nak test drive ke?..takper..this car is meant for testing"… dlm hati a’ah apehal la..aku datang mmg nak test drive..

Aku risau..aku rasa cam panjang je kete tu hahah…then aku start engine, look at few important functions then aku reverse…wahh..nice.really nice..!! tp still cam takut2 la…hahah..aku pun pelik apsal…aku mmg dah drive since 17 and keep driving almost everyday and tetiba hari ni rasa cam baru masuk sekolah memandu!

Aku rasa cam slow la aku bawa ..tp on the road pun banyak kereta masa tu + traffic lights..sebab salesman tu nmpak aku cam takut2 je..dia pun ckp "Cik Nazirah..perempuan skang dah bawa harrier..bawa laju2 lagi..cuba Cik Nazirah tekan minyak banyak skit..baru rasa energy dia" hahah tu nak ckp aku bawa slow la tu..tp mmg slow pun..and at last…aku pilih route yg takde traffic light and berbukit..saje nak test power kereta…and yup it’s a good car ..really nice.

Itu dia belum komen aku bawa kete buka selipar hahah..sebab dulu cikgu pertama bawa kereta aku ialah mak aku…perkara pertama yg dia ajar..kalu nak rasa pedal lebih, buka selipar..sampai skang ilmu itu berkesan kat anak perempuan dia ni…heheh…anyway, the test drive was ok…aku rasa kalu aku tak takut sure aku dah masuk MRR2..tp sebab perangai takut2 aku ni dtg tak semena-mena..aku bawa area wangsa je la hahah…what a waste…

A dead woman writing hehe no..no just kidding..have you ever felt ‘give-up’ sometimes? or when people said don’t give-up..be optimist..ok! I’ll be optimist!! but then it’s still no where…and you felt..man I’m just so tired of being optimist huhuh…pernah tak rasa?

My aunty once told me..3 things that she learned from her hajj were bersangka baik (optimist la tu kan), doa and tawakal…3 things that I always hold dear in my life..satu hari I felt like "man I just dunno how to find the solutions..when you work with people, it’s hard lorr…nak deal ngan stupid procedures la (hehe suka ati je ckp), org yg dah mental block, snobbish and not that brilliant officers (arghh can me scream like a crazy woman)..bla..bla..bla..AND tdk dilupakan..rasuah even in education line..when ppl thougt it’s a very ethical job..emm nope..tidak pd zaman ini..tak semua ..tp ada.

But what i want to share is that..once, when you feel that you’re so tired of being optimist, always remember there’s light at the end of the tunnel…have faith. It’s ok to feel sad or down but make sure it challenges you to do better next time..or think smarter than before to solve the problems..I don’t remember which surah.."Orang-orang yang berputus asa dari rahmat Allah adalah dari golongan yang kafir"..so for sure kita tak mau jadi golongan tu rite..Only the strongest stands the test of time..

For my close friends that I shared a lot..hehe..thanks for all the advices..really appreciate it, really I do…for the bottom of my heart..and you know who u are..

Kenyataan Azmi Khalid berkenaan pemenang kereta MyVi untuk penukaran kad pengenalan lama kepada MyKad.."Saya tak tahu, saya dah tukar Kementerian. Sekarang awak kena tanya Menteri yang baru lah"..walaupun peraduan itu dibuat semasa di bawah pengendaliaanya. Macam tu ke Menteri jawab pada rakyat? Emmm…(budak darjah satu pun boleh jawab)

Bukanlah kempunan sangat dengan hadiah tu heheh lagi pun aku mmg tak layak nak menang pun, tukar MyKad lepas 31 Disember (ya..ya..i’m not a good citizen) tp rasanya jawapan dia tak profesional la..when you were the one who annouced the competition, you should be responsible to announce the winner or at least, pass it to someone else before you leave the Ministry. (Takde kot MyVi tu sebenarnyer heheh)

Tu tak masuk lagi kes projek E-Cadaster bawah Lembaga Jurukur Malaysia (sepatutnyala). Azmi Khalid gak Menterinya di bawah Kementerian Sumber Asli dan Alam Sekitar..Projek RM500 juta yang sepatutnya diagihkan ke Lembaga untuk diagihkan ke firma-firma ukur bertauliah, telah diambil alih oleh sebuah firma yang tak masuk list pun dalam firma jurukur bertauliah..emm mcm mana tu???

Biasala, senario politik dan perniagaan di Malaysia. Tapi sekarang, aku memang tak boleh la tgk muka Azmi Khalid tu..aku macam menyampah giler. Tu belum masuk bab-bab dia jawab soalan tentang alam sekitar hahaha…letih dengar.

p/s:Opps, sorry yer Normala, I kutuk suami you.

Sebuah kisah di sebuah restoran, aku dan 5 kawan yang lain duduk berkumpul. Almaklum la dah lama tak jumpa. Lepas habis dinner, kami pesan plak supper. 4 yang lain order minuman ‘biasa-biasa’ la..milo, nescafe. Aku plak dalam kepala nak makan lai chee kang..norre still thinking..lalu bertanya pada kakak amik order tu

Norre: Kak, cendol ada?

Kakak: ADA! (jawab dengan penuh yakin) …

(Aku dalam hati…wahhh, bestnyer restoran ni..mlm2 pun ada cendol..mesti lai chee kang ada) belum sempat Norre order, kakak tu menjawab

Kakak: TAPI…..santan takde.

Norre: Ahhh (muka terkejut takde santan, actually aku pun surprise gak la dgn jawapan kakak tu) Habis tu kak, kita nak makan cendol tu camner?????

Aku ngan Sam : (control giler tak nak gelak, sebab takut kakak tu kecik ati)…yang lain-lain dah gelak but still under control tgk kakak yg akan-akan blur malam itu.

Norre: takpela kak…ABC? (norre mencuba nasib dengan menu yang lain)

Kakak: (sambil memandang ke arah mesin pengisar ABC nyer) jagung ada..cincau ada…

Norre: (penuh harapan..ada kot ABC)

Kakak: TAPI……..ais takde!

Oh my God..kakak!!! Masa ni aku dah hilang kawalan..aku gelak macam nak rak..join the crowd..pu-g ngan farah dah hilang dari pandangan..aku rasa diorang dah gelak bawah meja..dlm hati I’m still hoping my lai chee kang can be ordered..Norre…can’t stop laughing..still re-thinking what to order (I guess)

Aku: Kakak, saya bagi lai chee kang (confident je order)

Kakak: Lai chee kang ada..TAPI…aiskrim takde

Kali ni aku gelak sambil merasa confuse…tapi aku gelak je la dulu (dah yang lain-lain gelak) they waited for the TAPI…and every meal that we ordered after the cendol mesti ADA…TAPI….at last, tak nak kesian kan kakak tu, norre and I ordered drinks yang memang dah di order tadi. So, at least we know and for sure that menu existed. Bila kakak tu pergi, I wondered…

Aku: Kenapa yer..lai chee kang kena makan ngan aiskrim ker?

After a few discussion, we concluded, mungkin la kakak tu confuse kot dengan item apa yang ada dan takde kat restoran dia…lagi-lagi tgk kitorang gelak macam org giler..dia jadi lagi blur and confuse, as confused as lai chee kang served with ice-cream

One of the coolest break-up songs har.har.har..by Beyonce Knowles

Mmmm to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, thats my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, then please don’t touch (don’t touch)

And keep talking that mess, thats fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And its my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I’m such a fool, talking ’bout
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he’ll be here in a minute (baby)

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinkin’
You’re irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if shes home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn’t know
What did you think
I was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I’m such a fool, talking ’bout
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know ’bout me
You must not know ’bout me
I could have another you in a minute

Before I went to bed last night, I just realized that I have mentioned ‘that’s so sweet’ 3 times on the day. It’s not a phrase that I utter quite often.

That’s So Sweet 1

“Nazirah..I am messaging you to give u a wake up call and mandate from Wee Hoe for you to get focus and serious in finishing ur research” said Maran (hahaha) - <kalah my supervisor> siap ada mandate lagi fuh!

If u need any help just give us a call (and I think that’s sweet). I admit, I lost focus in finishing it. InsyaAllah, I’ll try my very best to be in track again. Progress for today, I already setup my web server to start the LMS testing again…(still progress lorr hehe)

That’s So Sweet 2.

A friend who planned to resign asked me a sample of resignation letter. Thinking that he helped me a lot specially being my network desk officer (hehe), I sent him a copy of someone’s la..with the alteration on my point of view. By the end of the day, he sent me the letter he wrote and guess what, that resignation letter was sweet (which I think quite funny la) wei, nasib baik bos ko lelaki. Kalu dia bagi counter offer, not because of ur previous performance tau but because of ur resignation letter kot (hahaha)

That’s So Sweet 3

“Miss u, miss the old days, take care. We’ve gone thru a lot since then, everything to be nicer & sweeter when we were younger. Just remember, Allah always by our side”. I was having a bad day, but I didn’t tell anyone. I don’t know how she can actually felt it..and suddenly sent this kind of sms and made me cried while waiting for the traffic light..bad day + sweet sms..weird but I think I’m lucky..bad day and still can say “that’s so sweet”..

Life pushes all of us around. Some give up. Others fight. A few learn the lesson and move on. They welcome life pushing them around. To these few people, it means they need and want to learn something. They learn and move on. Most quit and other few fight.

If you’re that kind of person that has no guts, you just give up every time life pushes you. If you’re that kind of person, you’ll live all your life playing it safe, doing the right things, saving yourself for some event that never happens. Then you’ll die as a boring old man.

From the book Rich Dad Poor Dad by Robert T.Kiyosaki

My Ramadhan during my TKC’s years were so memorable. That was the time when we can use our hands to eat after a long year eating using fork and spoon. The first 10 minutes after azan, the dining hall bagai dilanda garuda. Semua orang khusyuk makan tanpa mengiraukan apa yang berlaku di sekitar. Hanya selepas lebih kurang 10 minit, barulah kedengaran beberapa orang pelajar membuang saki baki makanan mereka ke besen dan seperti biasa, bunyi keletang-keletung tray berlaga dengan besen kedengaran. Only then we knew…ooo nak dekat habis masa dinner rupanya.

How can I describe Tarawikh during my TKC years..emm ESCAPE, SAUNA and TIN SARDIN. Sebab surau kami masa tu kecil dan tidak cukup kipas. Semua orang berebut nak solat tepi dinding sebab dekat dengan punca angin (kipas la) dan tak kurang juga mereka-mereka yang melarikan diri daripada menunaikan solat tarawikh (ish..ish..ish hehehe)

TADARUS was during evening prep time. We were divided into groups together with our seniors. Setiap kumpulan kena tulis mereka dah sampai surah mana di sebuah papan putih. Masa tu la nak tunjuk eksyen..wei group aku dah nak khatam dah!! Maka, ketua-ketua kumpulan tadarus yang anak buah dia malas datang mengaji akan memerah tenaga lebih kuat lagi supaya cukup ahli kumpulan untuk mengejar kumpulan-kumpulan yang dah nak khatam.

The best part of all, RAYA SHOW before Raya long break. Ooo..and not to forget RAYA CARD that was design by each class to be given to their starters. (I still have them). Masa tu la nak tulis..COME BACK IN A BIGGER PEACE, tampal duit 1 sen (konon-konon duit raya la tu) and other standard old good sayings. Even though it has passed thousand miles away, but for me, it will remain, be missed and reminisce every time Ramadhan comes. Selamat Berpuasa!

I am going to Bali after raya…can’t wait! This will be my fourth time and always looking forward to go!! Apa yg best??  SPA!!, beautiful beaches, bali interior design, furniture, craft, bali batik, beauty products hehehe, traditional dances, sculptors, landscape design, unique architecture of Hindus temples, paintings bla..bla..bla everything la about Bali! No wonder why people keep coming back to visit. Bali is so unique in its own way, very artistic and still maintain the traditional concept of living as their identity. Still remember my last visit, I jot down every name of district that we visited (our tour guide Pak Made was nice!) with their own specialties of products that they produce.

Ubud - SPA and beauty products, Kuta - beach, surfing, braids, Sukowati-cheap stuff hehe + silver jewelleries, Lot Tanah - paintings and panoramic view, Nusa Dua - beautiful beaches arrrr..tak ingat dah ehheh. I should refresh on this future visit. To anyone yang plan nak pergi..pls GO! Very worth to go emm but it depends la how you’re enjoying it. But insyaAllah, it’s worth.

10 THINGS I REALLY WANT AND MISS MOST AT THE MOMENT

1. Do graphic design and creative artwork

2. Travel to islands and relaxing at beaches

3. Go back early from work and not worrying about the job I left

4. Play basketball

5. Go swimming (terapung sambil memandang langit…so relaxing)

6. Continue reading books that I’ve bought months and months ago

7. Relaxing while watching new movies (I have met new ‘pirate’ ;)) more supplies)

8. Facial treatment!!

9. MMU (hahaha..kidding)…USM, ya I do miss USM sometimes and college too, MMU emm tunggula another two years ke, I’ll miss u too :)-

10. Try new job mcm jadi cikgu tadika plak ker…??